Always avoid studying a lot and think of embarrassing and painful experiences in the past whenever you read a book? If so, you may want to try it.
As soon as you study, you associate it with failing a test and immediately become anxious inside, slow progress, self-blame, don't know how to cope with it, and always want to avoid the books.
Every time I open a book, the shadow of failing an exam looms over me, my anxiety is overwhelming, I learn slowly, I hate myself for not being able to do anything, I can't find a way out, I can only avoid studying!
Hey friend! I can tell from your short description that you're really avoiding studying, even the questions are written in such a concise way 😊😛
However, even though there are not many words, I can feel that you really want to learn and change. Otherwise, you wouldn't have said something like "I'm anxious and hate myself".
I'm not sure of your age, or what specific test frustrations you've experienced, or how slow you are to "learn" as you put it.
But I want to share my true story of taking the Economist and Counselor exams.
When I was 27, I was in a car accident and suffered a seventh-degree head injury that left my memory almost zero.
When I was 30 years old, I applied for the real estate economist examination in order to evaluate my title. My college major is neither real estate nor economy, and I got the textbook like reading a book, I can't remember it at all, and the foundation is so poor that I can't start.
But without having passed this exam, my paycheck is going up slowly, and I'm stressed about raising my kids and paying my mortgage.
I failed the test at 30, failed again at 31, and finally succeeded at 32. During those three years, I wanted to throw the book away countless times, to give up completely.
But I can't give up!
Because that's what I have to achieve, there's no turning back. Other people have good memories, like flying to the exam; I have bad memories, like riding a bike. But no matter the way, they got there first, I slowed down, and eventually I got there.
When I was 45 years old, I wanted to take the counselor exam purely out of interest. There are many schools of psychology, the terminology is mixed, and it is easy to confuse, seeing three thick books my head is big.
But because I liked it, I decided to put up a fight. After seven months of preparation, brushing up on three question sets and copying two notebooks, I actually passed the exam in one sitting, in time for the last batch of counselor exams from the Ministry of Human Services.
I've been trying to write on the platform lately, and I didn't realize that after twenty years of not putting pen to paper, I'd be able to turn in a manuscript every three days for the last half of the month, and all of them have been recommended (for example, yesterday's "Are You Happy-Happiness Takes Courage, Too").
Even I am surprised and admire my potential. I believe: [You never know how much energy you have until you push yourself].
My friend, I may have been a bit wordy compared to your brevity. I hope my sharing has inspired you in some way.
[Where the heart is, the deed will be done].
The key [is not whether you can, but whether you want to]!