I am a sophomore girl, since I went to high school, I always feel that I can't do anything better than others, and I am inferior to my classmates in every way.
In my freshman year of high school, I had a crush on the class president and was rejected, and my grades plummeted during that time.
It feels lonely to not have a friend around you that you can make friends with.
It wasn't until the second semester of high school that I wanted to bring my grades up, so I asked my teacher to help me out by putting me at the same table as a girl in my class who had exceptionally good grades.
This girl excels in her studies, has a good temperament and is pretty.
It's a very ladylike type.
I especially adore her.
Then we played together, and she had another girl B who was always a good friend, so the three of us used to walk and eat together.
We took classes at the same place and saw a movie together during summer tutoring, it was with another boy who liked her, the three of us.
But just the day before yesterday at the field day, things suddenly changed.
She suddenly stopped talking to me and became particularly silent.
She's been playing with her tablemates and has told me outright that she doesn't want to play with me anymore, that it's awkward with me in every way.
And tell Girl B not to play with me either.
Now at school, I don't even have anyone to eat with.
I felt so much panic and anxiety and didn't know what to do.
Hello friend, I'm counselor Man Suk-jin.
First of all a warm hug for you~~
I can sense that you have been through a lot since you started high school, "always feeling that you are not as good as others, being rejected for liking the class president in your senior year of high school, your grades dropping, and not having any true friends". But at the same time you were brave enough to take the initiative to ask your teacher to arrange a table with a good student, and you had a great time together, studying, eating, and going to the movies, giving you company. Unfortunately, the change was so fast that this friend suddenly alienated you, which was frustrating, panicky and anxiety-ridden, and for a while you didn't know how to cope.
I wonder what made her change like that? Why didn't it feel awkward before but now it feels awkward in every way? Have you tried talking to her? Could there be any misunderstanding?
What do we do if the friendship is truly irretrievable?
You've walked through a difficult situation before with the help of a teacher, so this time, who else is around to help you? Teachers, parents, or other students?
You've already had success and I'm sure you'll come up with something good this time too.
It's just that when one is surrounded by emotions, it's hard to deal with difficulties rationally, so we can feel that anxiety first, see what we're worried about, and then deal with it more calmly when the emotions pass.
Good luck!