Sometimes the mood sinks without warning and suddenly you feel especially sad. You may be enthusiastic about a lot of things one minute, but lose interest the next. Every day, you are overwhelmed by anxiety, always feel that everything around you is not right, and are physically and mentally exhausted, but you do not want to seek help from a doctor or let your family know.
Hello friend, this is 🍀. I saw your message and could feel your desire to be heard and understood. I'm glad I noticed your heartfelt message, and I'm here to give you a warm hug in advance ❤️
When I read your description of your state, I was quite saddened, you must have survived a lot of tough times. You must have gone through a lot of tough times. Now you feel that everything is wrong, in fact, it is not the outside world that is wrong, but your inner "inner child" has been awakened. For example, when you were a child, your parents may have demanded too much of you, often denying or treating you harshly, so that your feelings have been suppressed. These emotions have been accumulating year after year, and now they have erupted, causing you to feel isolated and miserable, or even that the world is treating you unfairly. It's possible that something recently triggered your insecurities again, compounding the fear.
The above is a brief rundown of your situation, and I have compiled the following suggestions to help you with your confusion.
1. Everyone goes through downturns, but the law of the universe is that it is fickle. Suffering is a part of life, it just takes a different form. Understanding this, you know that lows don't stay permanently because everything flows. The moment is hard, but it's only a temporary feeling, like tripping and falling while climbing a mountain, getting up and continuing on, each step is growth. The lows are instead the beginning of the uphill climb, keep going and you will find yourself stronger than you thought.
2. Now that you realize that your emotions are related to your family of origin, you can choose not to be bound by it. You are self-sufficient and do not lack love and warmth. You can actively fight the habits that come from your family of origin - it pulls you to the left, and you tend to go to the right. Practice slowly and those negative patterns will naturally fall off. Fears other than life and death are paper tigers. There are infinite possibilities when you are alive, believe in your potential and don't underestimate yourself.
3. Most human suffering stems from not loving yourself enough. In fact, the only thing that can stop you from being happy is your own definition. Life is an experience, sweet and sour is the process, you will not be stuck in one state forever. Believe in yourself more and put the focus back on yourself. Live to love yourself well, everything else is just icing on the cake.
Not loving yourself is the root of all ills. As long as you are alive, try and experience, big deal, start all over again. Your existence is precious in itself, hug yourself more, affirm yourself more, take your time and everything will get better.
I hope you find your inner light, cheers ❤️