I am now really difficult, I feel that life has no direction at all, and I dare not even imagine the future, every day is particularly tormented.
There are no friends around to talk to, and family members can't do much to help, so it's like the whole person has fallen into a black hole, especially helpless.
What the hell can I do to get out of this pain and get better slowly?
Friends.
Hello!
Honestly, it may seem unbelievable to you, but when you're in such a painful situation, it's probably best not to push yourself to take immediate action, but to stop for a moment and give yourself some space.
I can sense from your words that you don't know where to start right now, in that case, why don't you just give it all to time and let the days slowly bring you to see the turnaround. Those stresses and fears that make you anxious may become less scary with the passage of time, and you may even suddenly realize one day in the future: hey, here's something I seem to be able to try to do something about!
Many people have been through similar lows and even couldn't laugh at one point, but what the heck? There are always ups and downs in life.
I truly hope that in the near future you will be able to put a warm smile back on your face!
Good luck with everything!