As a student who had just finished my senior high school exams, I should have been enjoying a relaxing time, but instead I was involved in a heated family conflict. This year, my parents' relationship broke down completely. My dad's affair plunged my mom into an abyss, and now they are at loggerheads over their respective interests. Dad was often drunk and unreasonable, and in my senior year of high school, he even made so much noise in the middle of the night that I couldn't sleep. They fought at times, and at times they made up, and this repetition made me break down and feel inferior. I hated their fights and hated myself for not being able to do anything about it. At the extreme, I even thought of taking them away with me because I knew they loved me and I didn't want them to suffer. But deep down, I love the future, I love to daydream, and I have a drive to pursue the life I love. I understand that the pain will pass, but right now, it's really hard for me and no one understands me.
I am especially heartbroken to learn of your experience. First of all, I want to say that you are by no means alone, and many young people experience family difficulties. Your feelings are completely normal, but it's important to take the initiative to find a way out. Mom and Dad's arguments and violent behavior should never happen, and it can deeply damage you psychologically. Protecting yourself is a priority, and if you feel threatened or in danger, always seek help, such as a friend, teacher or school counselor.
At the same time, it's vital to find someone you can talk to. A counselor or support group can provide a professional listening ear to help you clear your mind and reduce stress. Don't forget that your desire for the future is your source of motivation. Use imagination and goal setting to create small plans for yourself to get closer to your dreams one step at a time.
Remember that you are not powerless. While you can't change your parents' relationship, you can adjust your mindset. Paying more attention to your mental health and developing positive thinking and resilience can help you face the challenges ahead. Have faith that many people are willing to reach out and be brave enough to ask for help, and you will be able to get through this.