In recent years, I've begun to develop an interest in queer-themed literary films, especially those with lesbian themes.
I've never been attracted to boys, I've been on my period for four years, but I've never really liked a boy, instead I've been fascinated by girls, and I can't help but look at pretty girls on the street.
I've had sexual fantasies that were all about lesbians, where I imagined myself as a P (a feminized character) and the other person as a T (a masculinized character), like one of my female classmates, and we kissed. Now I've come out to my parents, but I'm so stressed out that I'm suffering from depression and suicidal tendencies, and I'm taking medication. What should I do? Am I considered a lesbian?
Hello my friend, I'm Acorn, the whale social worker.
Considering that you are in middle school, I would suggest that you hold off on jumping to conclusions and wait until you are an adult to clarify your sexual orientation.
This is because in the early stages of adolescence, a tendency called "pseudo-homosexuality" often occurs.
This tendency is due to the fact that the body is just beginning to develop but is not yet fully mature, and it is easy to "reject the opposite sex" at this time. In the absence of interaction with the opposite sex, many people unconsciously turn to the same sex for emotional support. For example, a girl may desire a mature partner like an older sister, while a boy may wish to have an older brother to rely on. These intimate expectations and fantasies can sometimes confuse people and mistake them for homosexuality.
So I would suggest that you don't label yourself too early, and embrace your current appreciation of the same sex while maintaining a normal association with your heterosexual classmates. After this period has passed smoothly and the effects of your pseudo-sexual tendencies have diminished, you can then determine whether your sexual orientation is homosexual, heterosexual or bisexual.
Best wishes (whale social worker 🐋)