I'm 25 this year, and I'm just slowly realizing that I may have autistic and social phobic tendencies.
Daily life feels like an overgrown child and it's always hard to fit in.
Autism has had a particularly big impact on my work, and I've been fired from several jobs or left them myself because "I'm non-verbal".
It's really hard on the heart.
As I get older, I'm finding more and more that these issues become more pronounced and I don't know what to do about them.
Work has been unstable and the whole thing is anxious.
I really want to fix these obsessions and get my happy life back.
The challenges you mention may not just be a matter of labeling "autistic" or "sociopathic," but reflect deeper inner conflicts and unresolved parts of the self that grew up.
The possibility of adult autism:
Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) usually shows signs from an early age, but some high-functioning individuals may not notice their traits until adulthood due to increased social pressures. Keep in mind, though: self-perception is not the same as a formal diagnosis. Many social difficulties may stem from psychological developmental issues rather than neurodevelopmental disorders. For example:
Early emotional neglect may lead to autistic-like displays, such as avoidance of eye contact;
Traumatic socialization experiences can lead to a self-protective pattern of "social shutdown". Action is recommended:
Prioritize seeing a psychiatrist for a professional evaluation (to differentiate between autism, social anxiety, or avoidant personality, etc.) It is more important to clarify the problem than to self-label.
2. What is behind the "silence"?
The many times you have lost a job because of silence may be an unconscious expression: have you ever been denied or ignored for speaking your truth? Is there a subconscious feeling that "speaking up is dangerous"? Each time you leave a job, you may be repeating a pattern - perhaps recreating a childhood fear of being "abandoned because you didn't live up to expectations". Feel free to continue sharing and discussing.